writer · musician · artist

lump waz here

what is real?

move your cursor or tap around — it's a theremin

about

leaving my mark

I write essays. I play the theremin. I make things. I keep asking myself what is real, and I don't know the answer, so I make things that give me an idea of what real might be for me. I've been asking since I was hospitalized for psychosis at fifteen. This is where I put what I find.

I struggle with being seen. I also can't stand not being seen. The pseudonym is my compromise: a name that isn't my name, on things that are completely me. Lump waz here, but you don't know who Lump is.

writing

essays & notes

Longer pieces live on Substack. These four trace an arc.

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music

an instrument you don't touch

The theremin is played without touching it. I think that's a beautiful metaphor for my life, which has been a lot about moving through invisible forces and still making something harmonious out of it.

these recordings don't have theremin on them yet. theremin coming soon.

art

things made by hand

Watercolor of a small bed adrift in a star-filled nebula of blues, purples, and reds
Charcoal drawing of a face framed by tree branches, the words 'I will find my way' carved into the bark above
Pastel drawing of a girl in a hospital bracelet holding her head as a storm cloud rains down behind her
Muted digital drawing of a figure resting their head on crossed arms in a cluttered room, clock reading 3:33
Colored pencil drawing of a burrowing owl perched on branch letters spelling HOOT against a blue sky
Pastel still life in purples and greens with a skull, a clock, and draped fabric
Colored pencil portrait of a German shepherd resting its head
Intricate pen drawing from 2011 of animals, stairways, and a face woven into a flowing landscape
Hand-drawn sepia comic page from Aphotica, two travelers talking by a campfire
Watercolor of a seated figure with a third eye, hands outstretched over prescription bottles, surrounded by panels of symbols
Red pen sketchbook drawing of overlapping faces, captioned the mix of voices are is mixed with choices
Charcoal still life of a bed with a fedora, a doll, a stuffed bear, and a mirror reading objects in mirror are closer than they appear
Digital painting of a figure sitting on a rooftop at night overlooking a glowing city skyline and lit bridges
Acrylic painting in black, gold, and copper of a mechanical face with gears, surrounded by symbols
Glittering digital portrait of a veiled figure with a halo, weeping while holding a bowl of light
Warm-toned digital drawing of a person smoking by a window while a small alien figure stands in the doorway